Saturday, February 10, 2007
quote to think about:
"If you hold on tight to what you think is your thing you may find you're missing all the rest." - DMB
"You start out life with a clean slate. Then you begin to make your mark. You face decisions, make choices. You keep moving forward. But sooner or later there comes a time where you look back over where you have been...and wonder who you really are." - The Wonder Years
yea. i've made decisions, made choices; moved forward. But i question myself. i have my doubts. there are things that i do regret, while there are troubles that i'm glad i got myself into. now you need to make a major decision... and everything comes back to you. When i look back and wonder. Should i just do this? or do that?
Over the past year, i've been indifferent to the thought of separation. i thought that people come and go. (yes, i read chewyan's blog.) although you'd have really good friends but eventually there'd be a day whereby we won't be together. all that's left may be memories; some people leave a bit more--they leave themselves in your heart. But that's that. cuz we all lead our own lives, have our own priorties and eventually die in different ways.(ah that was random.) HOWEVER, all of us find leaving each other so difficult. our blogs are filled with "we'll stay together... i don't wanna leave..." and sadly, life hardly goes the way we want it to be.
i wonder. why do i keep thinking that there'd always be separation? for friends, for those who may become more than friends, for family. now i just keep thinking that why be together in the first place when we won't be together in the end?... and i suddenly realise... nobody will be together in the end? cuz we'd all die. ah. so all that matters is memories; it's how we lived our lives. there'd always be separation bah. but it's difficult not to feel sad. so... maybe i've just shut up the chances of separation. or maybe i just keep thinking that since we'd all separate... might as well now? oh dammit. i'm talking in circles!
should i have taken my chances with you?
should i take my chances with this or that jc?
ah. questions questions questions that need to be answered. i shall like get a gps system. cuz i feel kinda lost and i needa find my way out.
(okay haha.)
and people! you know i'm alright cuz i'm being dumb right. haha. and i realise again that my entry is kinda not making sense. haha. ah. ah. =/ hrm.
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