Monday, July 24, 2006
quoted from Lynda La Plante "Above Suspicion"-
'I'm fine, sweetheart. It's just sometimes Daddy works with such
twisted, devious souls that
their sickness clings afterwards, like a bad smell.'
'What does devious mean?'
He sipped his brandy.
'Saying you didn't do something when you know that you did; weaving lies to make everyone believe you didn't do this thing, but you know that you did and you enjoy the fact that your lies have fooled everyone. That's devious.'
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you're not totally like that; but you're like that in a way. proud of all those sick things that you know you've done; and showing off to people, when you don't know how much of a soul you've damaged. That soul will never be complete again, as you continue to sin. How many souls you've damaged i bet there's not just that one.
and your sickness clings afterwards, sparking off some deep infuriation inside. and i hate you for that. for once i'd forgive myself for hating a person. and that's you. i'm kinda disgusted with some of your friends too; they've broke innocent hearts.
i can't tolerate such sick people.you should just wash your filthy hands for the rest of your life and try to get it clean though it never may. and FURTHERMORE feeling so great about it.
but i thank you. for showing me the ugly side of the human nature.the DIRTY SIDE OF HUMAN NATURE. that you clearly portray. that others work hard to overcome and that you are cultivating with care.
for the moment; i'm so disgusted with you.
but for the next, i'm sure you're not worth it.
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don't ask who.
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ah i'm feeling better! (:
Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do,
when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No.
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lookin forward to some day a hundred plus days away.
then, perhaps, will you find all those things back again.
don't assume that you understand me;
cuz you don't.
i don't either.
but deep inside my heart
i know i'm gonna be okay. (:
;7:26 PM
