Thursday, April 13, 2006

What if you spent so much time doing something. to try to do sth good. but when you finish it some people say it's trash? and somehow. everything is gone just because of SOME PEOPLE?

I FOUND MY DESIGN ON THE FLOOR, STEPPED ON. WITH FOOTPRINTS AND ALL THAT SHIT. maybe because it was really bad. so nvm. maybe it was really bad.

(: okay that's still OKAY. BUT I'VE NOT FINISHED.

sometimes it's okay to joke. it's okay to think that something others' do is real bad. you're damn right entitled to your opinion. but you don't have the right to criticize. unless you can do better. even if you can do better, you can't just be an ass and just fire away. and laugh and wdvr. do you know how bad that hurts?

haiya. just. yea. i'm not targeting anybody in t two separate incidents. what i'm targeting is attitude. i just think that thoughts shld be spared for others. don't go overboard with all your jokes. sometimes it's too much.

maybe you think i'm an insecure idiot. i mean as long as i think it's great, who cares man? but yes. i AM insecure. i don' think i can be good in anything. maybe i can. i try to think i can. i'm working towards being more confident in what i can do. but i just wished you could see through me.

i couldn't sleep that night not because of your message.
i couldn't sleep that night cuz i hated myself.
i thought i really sucked.
i thought the board really sucked.
because of me.
i know you were joking.
but do you know how much insecurity you brought me?
you never knew.
sorry.
i'm over it now, but i just wanted you to know.
(:
xians still rock.

thank you to those who were nice. you really helped.

that's why i love you; you always seemed to be able to see through me. but now. you can't. help me.

yiqi
grps,nhhs,sajc