Monday, August 1, 2005

i got my xrayy results! (: nothing much's wrong. i can playy again.finally.

today was darn sad n happy. cried alot. for whatever reasons. just felt so cut inside.. yea.. den now. everything's forgotten. i can play netball again. that's maybe all that matters.. maybe i shld just keep playin. and keep forgetting.

for that moment you walked away. i cudn't help it. i cant stand it..

for that moment you looked at me, i wanted to jump off that railing.that look in your eyes. disappointment? sadness? anger?

dont walk away.
i wonder how weak i can get.
i hate this.
i really hate this.

i cant really remember what happened in that short five minutes during lunch. i really cant. but all i can rmb is how i felt. that very few minutes.. maybe it was my fault. i shldn't have thrown anything. no matter how many stuff u threw i shldn't have thrown anythin. i shld've just got the wksht. just did what i cud've done. cud've just been nice. cud've just. cud. but i din.

ten minutes after that was. the first time in what i cud rmb.. the first time i let my tears drop in class. i destroyed ppl's zuo wen. i'm so sorry. but my own zuo wen was still alrite. HEH. GOOD INK. but do you know how i felt? i really hope you do. i guess it was still my fault. all mine...

patch up.
go there and patch up.
was it all my fault?

forget it. forgive n forget. i have fogotten. i have forgiven . but my heart can still feel that cut. sorry.

thanks alot to CME. Think of someone whom is special to you. someone you like. THANKS ALOT. how sad can it get. nobody seems to be affected much tho. (: so it's alrite. everything's alrite. (: it's just the way we look at it. right?... right.

netball. netball. netball. TML. forget everything else. let's see if i can still runn around like crazy and feel that i belong. i belong there. in the court. i love it. that feeling that you really belong... i miss that feeling.

tc pple.

yiqi
grps,nhhs,sajc