Sunday, August 28, 2005

back from hospital. (: my ahma shld be outta hospital soon.

not a bad day so far. o tho the morning was kinda sad. but aft trying to sort a few stuff out.. it was alrite bahhs. yupp. watched tv. ai qing feng wei wu. and cried. lala. i'm stupid. watching tv and crying. watched pokemon ytd den cried. cuz the blue flying pokemon thing finally cud fly. haha. cried again when the pokemon left the gal. lala. whatever. how dumb is that. hahax. wonder if it's cuz i'm getting more and more emotional. or maybe it's cuz shows are getting more and more touching. even cartoons. haha. great.

den went to kk hospital again. ate lunch dere lyke ytd. had big mac! whee- fat. nvm. (: i gained abt err... 40g of fats? LOL. sth liddat. great. orange juice is fat free. we shld drink more of that. hmmm... den went up to pei my ahma. (: sat beside her bed and she held my hand. (: so sweet. cuz i was cold. den she was warmer than me lar. (: healthy. actually she can be discharged de la. (: soon. i love you ah ma. (: tho u wont be reading this bt hope u feel it. *huggs-

den came back home. mum still at hospital with da yee. with ah ma. hopefully she can be discharged today. can tell she really misses to be home. and i feel kinda sad for ahgong cuz he's alone at home. hmmm. when we went back home ytd he was like alone lar. felt kinda sad.

going to the hospital was okay lar. ytd the first time i went i was like. orh. hospital lor. nth much. bt today. saw so much more. at mac saw this lil baby. she was in the hospital clothes lar. den she tried to grabb my hand. but de mother say cannot. den i thot maybe she sick or sth. but den i smiled at her. so her mother let her touch me. (: den she smiled so happily. darn cute. why is she sick. so unfair. sad.. saw these children in wheelchairs.. like why lar? ..

i know these children that i saw were just like a few of maybe a few hundreds of other even more ill children in the hospital. i just feel like so yuan wang. why cant we all be healthy and normal and happy? It's really sad lar..

haha. maybe i'm thinking too much. nvm. i just hope they get well really soon. and go back to sch. go back and have fun. go back and lead a normal life. shucks. now i feel even more sad. thinkin abt those children with cancer. arghs. why?... WHY WHY WHY.. life is darnned unfair. only heaven knows. only heaven knows.

ytd my mum said i cud go and visit the children's wards. i wanted to lar. (: wanted to see cute lil` children. but i scared to go. cuz i was afriad i'd break down if i saw children who were really ill. remembered the time i fainted when i visited the kidney patients having dialysis. haha. so i shan't let anything like that happen again. grrrs. i'm NOT afraid of blood.i'm NOT. i'm just ...over-shocked. yupp.

if i fainted, wld u catch me? (: hmmm. thinking thinking thinking again. hmm.=l

nth much to update ler. supposed to be revising now. yupp. but nevermind. i'm too preoccupied with trying to save the world. haha. yea right. i wished i cud fly. serious. i wanna fly. hmphs.

_close your eyes and dream.*

hope the big hairy monster is smiling. not running arnd half naked. (: i'm sure you arent. enjoy.
hope for world peace.
hope for all the children in the world to be happy.
hope for everyone i know to be at peace with themselves.
hope for all dogs n cats n animals on earth to be safe.
hope. hope that i'll understand you one day.i'm sure i will. i hope.
hope for less trees to be chopped down.
hope for us to be with our loved ones forever. i'm sure they will be with us. in our hearts. everywhere we go.
hope for no more tears.
hope for no more lonely nights.
hope for happiness.
hope for joy.
hope for laughter.

take care. (:

yiqi
grps,nhhs,sajc