Tuesday, March 15, 2005

days r dam sad.... nowadays...oso dunno y....

my downstairs.. got one dog kena abandoned... rmb 2 yrs ago... i called de SPCA. dey ask me call town council. say put de dog down or wad shit. i nv call... fm dat day onwards. de dog began it's journey of findin his owner... it searched and searched.. it trusted everyone... just followed everyone arnd... like a loyal fren... but nobody ever took it home... i cudn't ... mum allergic... noww... from a puppy.. it has grown up ler... old dog ler... still nobody bring it home... still it held on to the hope that one day someone will bring it home and love it. it hoped one day it will get de love he deserved... but did he...

i dunno why i'm so anti lar. i'm so sorry to those whom i were anti to... sometimes... i jez cant help it... aft monday... i dont even know how to feel ler...

'you must put ur emotions behind you... and know wad u really want...' wad do i want? how i know wad i wann..?..... yea yea. whadever. but at least she was nice. yea.

jez so confused... blur... pple say me blur. ya i know i blur... but now... at least i have an excuse for acting blur.. cuz i am blur at times... now... jez wanna act blur....

used to think if i were nice to pple. pple would be nice back. but it dosent work that way.... does it?.... i thot dat everybody was nice actually.. deep down inside... so nobody deserves to be snapped at... even those who actually act like they very big. actually cuz they very small cuz dey wanna act big... so we muz be nice to dem... cuz dey actually very small... and mayb dey oso v sad inside.... and nobody wans to be sad... yea?....

i must be true to myself. tru to me. how can i when i'm so fake.

'big fake smiles n stupid lies. while deep inside you're bleedin``.' SIMPLE PLANnnn. dey rawk.

nvmoinddd. i'll get over it. nvm. i'm so sorry.

dear, dui bu qi.

yiqi
grps,nhhs,sajc