Thursday, October 29, 2009

the first person I call
when i'm feeling small
is you.

do you not know that?



Tuesday, September 1, 2009


MY LIFE NOW IS VERY FULFULLING.

(SMILE)



Tuesday, August 4, 2009


朋友.
How long will our friendships last?

I was looking at my primary school autograph book which is was like such a ‘in’ thing for everyone. And out came all the creative poems we loved to write. E.g

“Orange is round, Earth is round, don’t forget me when I’m not around”

“Enid Blyton I am not, So I cannot write a lot. Just 3 words: Forget Me Not”

“Christmas in December, a time to remember. Remember me forever, when we’re not together”

AND OF COURSE, the must-write phrase: ” FRENZ 4EVA “

Ah, the indelible memories of primary school. But there’s just one thing missing. The friendship is missing. I don’t know where more than half of my classmates are-back home or overseas, or what they’re doing. I don’t know if it’s that I missed out on the last gathering, or because we don’t visit each others’ facebook profiles to get the latest updates on their lives, but we just don’t. I don’t think we care too.

I don’t know if I care. I want to care, really. I want to. I want to keep friends that can last till the days we’re old and ku ku and start going for the Community Centre Courses like Tai-ji and Cha-cha-cha or the Monthly Big Walk so that I can get the free T-shirts. But I don’t know if they care too. And I don’t feel secure enough to say that they’d want me to care, too.

Is that sad or what? But if you’re reading this and you care, to the question in italics at the start of this post, please know.

I hope ours last a lifetime. Let’s keep that momentum going.



Tuesday, July 21, 2009


My stint as Media Relations with AYG has only further triggered my interest in DSLRs, and the yearning for greater quality photos. So, I shall start saving up. $120/month --> 1 yr to get my own entry level DSLR. Damn and not to mention I'm also saving up for an elecoustic. I've been spending more money than any time in my life, attributed to the immense amount of time I have gone shopping alone these few days.

I enjoy my alone time. I buy more things when I'm enjoying.

I just got back home from an hour of sitting at Wang Jiao alone, after driving lesson. Just trying their butter sugar toast (hmm not fantastic) and sipping Teh which I thought I wouldn't finish but eventually did, people-watching and thinking...oh, and arguing with G through sms. Finally succeeded in registering for Wireless@SG on my G900, which is quite a triumph because I've never had anything good to say about my phone.

Today morning's driving was fantastic. Mainly because the instructor was relaxed. I mean, come on man, just relax la I'm a safe driver. The instructor yesterday was chiding me for turning corners at a 'fast speed' and taking over the steering wheel at turns. Damn stressful. But today, ah. Different story. I checked my blind spots and everything on my own, changed lanes, manoeuvered bends myself and not once did the instructor touch the steering wheel I was controlling. We even managed to hold a discussion over whether driver in the test-car in front would pass because a taxi horned at her.

I don't know why I'm talking about my day because I hardly do, but yeah. Not in the best of moods. Wonder why that gets me talking but whatever.

Tumblr seems to be the in thing nowadays. I just spent some time reading "What the Hell is Tumblr?" @ http://www.fastcompany.com/blog/chris-dannen/techwatch/what-hell-tumblr-and-other-worthwhile-questions.



Sunday, July 5, 2009


Been so long since I blogged. 2 Bizarre Things That Happened Recently:

1. My mum promised me a reward of SGD$ 1000.00/- if I am able to do a full split in 2 years time from today, 5th July 2009.

2. Somebody told me "Your life is gone. Seriously, gone" after I told him I was going to University.

Quite a nice twist to the usual perception. Sincerely welcomed.



Thursday, June 11, 2009




I want a house like that- windows that you can sit with your legs out, with that guitar.



Thursday, May 28, 2009

So if I had one wish left on the earth, I'd give it to you, for you to reach the place you've wanted so much to be. And all I can say is that I hope for you, now, because the hope I've given you once turned out to be a hoax and I'm sorry. I hope that you can give yourself strength to hope. And I know, you never really give up. Even if you say you open the letter box with a sense of hopelessness. You never, never give up.

So if I had one wish left on the earth, I'd give it to you, for you to go wherever you want to.

Monday, May 25, 2009






Thursday, May 21, 2009


So, after I've thought about this a hundred and one times, the rational part of me sat down and I made this PROS and CONS list for SMU Sch of Soc Sci vs NUS FASS. It's kind of a sequel to the "NTU Mass com vs NUS FASS" but well that led me to NUS and the call from SMU on a wonderful Tuesday morning led me here. I kind of blurred the words so you can't really read it, but haha if you want to see my full list which is 1.5 A4 pages long, ask and you shall receive.

I think somebody transmitted me a sign last night. The transmission went:"Yi Qi, I think you're just running away from SMU because you're going to step out of your comfort zone." It came out of nowhere, you know. And I laughed, because I wondered out loud," Hello God, are you giving me a sign?" (Sorry I have no intention of making this sound insulting to those who're religious, really. I believe God/a supreme being exists but I'm agnostic/unitarian.)

Soooo anyway, after seeking advice from friends and seniors and reading the internet forums, this list emerged and this list has determined that I would not be travelling to the West for school. I crossed out the point about the (higher valued in terms of $, but not necessarily more prestigious) scholarship so that I could make a fair comparison but still, Dhoby Ghaut is the place to go.

It is mainly the compulsory internship and 2nd major, and my belief of better job prospects (due to the exposure to business studies) that has allowed S to whack N on the head and say "so there!" although N has a wonderful ranking of 18th in the world and an accompanying prestige.

Oh, so off I am to "Discover a different ME". Wonderful. (Will I develop an accent? Ok kidding)

Haha, and I cannot deny the fact that the materialistic part of me is happy too. Tsk.



Saturday, May 16, 2009


I want to find more of myself //
That journey isn't that great anyhow. Who will that journey involve? Where would that journey bring me? Why should I bother if it has already "been planned"?

On a wonderfully optimistic note, however, which I tend to incline myself towards, there are things that help to smoothen the ride.

Yes, whatever la yiqi. Pissy, curse-y, unhappy about the repetition of that apologetic-after-being-less-than-a-high-EQ-person routine. Wonderful conclusion to my night.

I'm ashamed to say that sometimes I don't feel guilt at all. Even today, when I left those dishes unwashed for the woman whom everyone takes for granted.

You lack resolve, yiqi. Better wake up your idea.

yiqi
grps,nhhs,sajc




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